My life, I live it

when everything is said and done this life really is not that hard. Some will tell you finding love, finding the one is impossible and so difficult… It’s not. first and foremost loving who you are has to be the most important thing, I know that sounds cliche and all that but hear me out.. I’m a confident person some say cocky lol but we wont go there. I have always had this confidence, not because I’m the best looking not because I’m the most athletic, not because I’m the sweetest (although this one is the close) I have always had confidence because I enjoyed who I was. okay now back on track, once you appreciate and listen to who you are you will ALWAYS find that person that is out there for you, just think about this world is FULL of people with all different passions all different interests. If you love sports and want to share that interest with someone they are out there. if you love tattoo’s from head to toe that’s out there too.. it honestly doesn’t matter what your interest is as long as its YOUR interest the rest will fall into place..

Second topic of why this life isn’t so bad- losing loved ones

Now I think you all know by now I have lost people very close to me and that’s okay.. one thing I can promise is that everyone in their lifetime will lose a loved one unless you are the first to die. its the facts of life. once you realize god or whoever you believe in can take that person off this earth and out of your life but they cant take it all. they cant take your memories with them, they cant take the laugh of theirs you hear when you know they would appreciate it. cant take the times you appear in my dreams while sleeping or while lazily day dreaming instead of working. no one can take the past with that loved one away.. just make sure to cherish the time you have with your loved ones because there will be a point where that’s all you have left. once you realize that loving and losing seems to get a little easier proving again this life isn’t so bad

now lets talk about school jobs ect.

some people go to school right away, some people wait till they figure out what they want to do.. there is no right answer so don’t think if it takes you longer that you are behind. sometimes those ppl that finish school right away have a good job hate their career path simply because they chose it too young. some people that wait too long end up stuck in their dead end job not bettering themselves. In this world it happens, happens to everyone best thing you can do is find something you enjoy as long as it helps you get through. there is never a too late never a not good enough this life is short best you can do is keep things in your life that makes you happy have your escape have your me time, do the things you enjoy and the rest will come.

all in all this whole thing comes down to one thing.. Be you, nobody else and you will find your happiness you will find the things in life that fulfill your needs. that I can PROMISE you.. enjoy your day. I’m going to get back to working outrageous hours so during the summer I have the time and money to do the things I love. watch baseball games, golf, go camping fishing 4-wheeling shooting anything that fits into my day and puts a smile on my face making my life a little easier..

alright so instead of being creative and making a good follow friday I’m just gonna do a quick run through

@chadmileski honestly the best friend anyone could ever ask for. always been there for each other always know the right thing to say and do I am blessed to have him in my life we might live two hours apart but no distance can come between the memories and good times we have shared.. I love you bro your my family always

@carissakimberly I know you never use twitter but I will shout you out anyways because you are my best girl friend in this world.. now we live 4 hours apart but like we said on the phone the other night still have love for each other and will keep in contact no matter what.. we have had our ups and downs and nothing ever comes close to you as a friend thank you

@Ianjjennings we are not talking right now I’m still pretty pissed off at you to tell you the truth once you grow up and be less self centered We will forever be best friends.. I’m here for you you have been here for me its as simple as that.. growing up with you man was always fun and i enjoy you in my life so no matter what we will be alright.. good luck over seas Come back in one piece so i can knock you out and we can call it even

@educhaj I didn’t get to truly know you till you became great friends with one of my friends.. after larsen’s wedding weekend I look at you as one of my close friends always had my back and I have yours always a good time when you make it to town.. maybe next time I fly into D.C. I will be able to stay a night instead of my flight getting moved up.. miss ya brotha hope teaching is going well

@esenay24 for really not knowing you it feels like 3 years was forever ago I’m really glad you came in my life it was a great pleasure getting to know you and how good of a person you really are.. I know this world will bring you many many good things so keep that smile on your face keep enjoying life and everything will fall into place.. my fake bff always..

@Il0vemargaritas You’re probably too drunk to read this already but I’m gonna do it for you anyways.. To everyone else it seems like we hate eachother little do they know we are like 3rd graders and we tease each other because we actually get along way too well.. I tell you so many things that’s going on in my life because you’re always there to listen ALWAYS and for that I thank you.. I’m here for you anytime no matter what

@Holliwood_xo the saying ups and downs has never had more meaning then between me and you.. you can hate me you can love me it doesn’t really matter nothing changes what we had you are always special in my book and that will never change.

@jordyhamrick my brotha from another motha, you live in ohio and for some reason I never held that against you.. you’re good shit always make me laugh and we gotta plan our golf outing I’m hoping this is the summer we actually take the time to do it

@samanthasteffey to me your amazing you always crack me up you always laugh at the things that go wrong in my life you’re there like a good friend should be. I’m gonna make a trip to your cabin for sure this summer I think it will be a great time.. hope your enjoying up north right now as I type this..

@RayRay_Rachael I don’t even know you at all just something about you that makes me smile, you just seem extremely nice and I wish Nothing but good things to come your way. I’m still praying for your grandfather because trust me I know how tough that can be. If you read post below this one. You are probably one of the most beautiful people and that’s not just looks although your looks are not slacking..

Special shout out to Jerry who doesn’t have twitter or tumblr but I feel like he deserves this anyways.. You are my best friend here I’m always here when you need me always got your back. You made me the god father of your first born and you have two sisters and the mom has a brother, giving me that honor brought great joy to my heart and your daughter means the world to. That night you had me choked up teary eyes when you explained why you did it and that if something ever happened to you and Rach that I was the person you trusted most in this world to make sure your daughter had a good life.. I love you bro your like a brother to me.. See you tomorrow

another shout out to Tommy Neuens, my best friend growing up spent every day with you always hanging out. I don’t know what happened between us we went our separate ways you headed to lower michigan I went to wisconsin. We recently became close again and I’m so happy for that.. I know you are over seas and I’m sorry I couldn’t make it to Cali before You left but so glad you called me before you did so we could catch up talk a little bit and I could tell your ass to come home safe to your wife.. I love ya my family does too good luck and come home safe

I’m used to always acting like the strong one, I’ll let other people cry on my shoulder tell me whatever is wrong with them but rarely do I ever open up.. even the people in this life I am closest with my family my friends I still hold so much in.. yesterday I finally reached my breaking point I didn’t sleep at all the night before I kept thinking about my grandpa my two friends I lost but I will get to that and it wore me out it took me to the point where I couldn’t hold it in any longer..

When I was 16 me and one of my best friends were supposed to go to neighboring towns basketball game, we decided not to go because we were running late, was snowing heavy and figured we would miss the first half.. I got the worse call about hour after that when I was told there was an accident and the two friends we were supposed to meet slid through stop sign and was hit by a semi. there confirmed one dead at the scene and the other still fighting for his life.. I couldn’t believe it phone dropped before he was finished.. my best friend who I was supposed to go with came over and we did what guys do anytime you think your gonna cry you give them a hug like they are the one who needs consoling.. we sat there for a few hours in disbelief doing the whole, well what if we went would they have waited and this wouldn’t have happened? I played center field baseball forever and my right fielder the guy who was always to my left always lined up next to me during the national anthem was now fighting for his life and there was nothing I could do about it. the next day February 27th 2002 he passed away.. now I was left with no hope losing one on February 26th and the other February 27th.. I have amazing friends and we were all there for each other and eventually I started feeling better I moved on but never forgot.. I still get the chills when I drive by and see their crosses I still make the sign of the cross I still tell them I miss them and I love them but I moved on.. now fast forward 4 years February comes up again.. I’m living in Green Bay wisconsin, I get word my Grandpa is sick, He has been battling cancer but this time they tell me He’s not doing so good.. Right away I tell my boss i gotta go and I will be back as soon as I can.. I stay a week in the hospital by his side as much as I can, be there not just for him but be there for my family. My family is all so close and I knew taking one piece away would crush so many of us.. The week Passes and Monday comes and I have to go back to work, I’m just a young kid at the time I had to work if I was going to survive on my own.. 4 hours into my work I receive a phone call I couldn’t answer it but I didn’t have to I knew exactly what the message was going to say. I wait till I drive back to my apartment before I listen to it.. I finally get the courage and of course just as I expected I dropped the phone dropped to my knees didn’t know what to do I’m two hours away from all my family. I pick up my phone call my best friend he didn’t answer I leave him a message saying get her now i need you.. Chad the best friend I could ever ask for gets the message doesn’t call he returns home with a case of beer and a sub gives me a hug and says stay here tonight and tomorrow you can drive home safely.. If i didn’t have chad and ian there during that time I don’t know what would have happened trying to drive home two hours in the winter crying angry all the emotions you could imagine.. of course that was already a rough day before I got the news because the day was February 27th.. I get back I act like I’m so strong to be there for my two sisters my dad who is a complete mess and the rest of my family who couldn’t figure out what we do next.. I cried when alone but kept the eyes dried with my family I wanted to give them support. finally make it through the funeral mass no tears keeping that inside.. I help carry the casket to the hearse as I push it in to strap it down I collapse on the road and have Nothing left… Felt like my world was taken away and i had no answer for it.. my sister was there to give back the support I gave her.. Fast forward to present day.. I have held it all in since then.. except one night with Holli trying to tell her all of this not sure how well I did.. Well then comes night before last couldn’t sleep was missing all of them and i made the mistake of looking at old pictures of all of them.. so i get up and I go to work at 6am just to take my mind off it.. well my 1pm appoint was across the street from my grandpa’s cemetery.. then to top things off the older couple I was doing the appraisal for asked if i knew him because our last name was the same. we ended up talking about him for a solid hour.. I leave there and I know I have to go see him at cemetery and I get there only to find 3 inches of ice over the granite gravestone I’m a wreck at this point everything coming out I’m now kneeling in the snow trying to punch away the ice just to see the matching praying hands on his gravestone and touch his name and I cant see it I cant get to it. I punch, I wipe it i scrape I feel like I cant get to him like he cant feel me.. I’m soaking wet I don’t know why this is happening why I am losing control during this time i receive calls from my dad and my sister like some how they know I need help like they feel I’m reaching the point of breaking.. I got up i dried off I put a smile and went about my day.. I know I’m good now to be strong come the 27th and my family is having a hard time I know for a fact I will be able to be strong and be there for them.. and really that’s all I care about.. Being there for the people I love

That’s All- back to work time

The world is filled with irony, Someone you care about can tell you about someone else hurting them and its so easy to say he doesn’t deserve you in a tone so simple like its the easiest thing in the world.. then sit back and think about the times you hurt that person where you said something that took her back where you did something unforgiven and you expect her to come back to you when you ask.. Now I fully know I am an asshole that’s not what I’m disputing but there will always be one that I always did my best to never be that way towards her. I failed at certain points in my life, sometimes not cheating not abusing her physically or verbally just isn’t enough.. the spoken word and the typed word can be just as bad. but the thing is, when you care enough for that person and that person knows that, you feel like it wont matter like this person gets me she knows exactly what I meant when I said it.. then when she never forgives you for that first you sit and wonder why second you try to explain third you hope they move on and then you always end up back at wondering why.. If you truly care you will just always be there no matter what. that means when your stomach hurts so bad you feel like your dying and when something goes wrong in their life you still put them first. That means calling them when you can barely breath yourself that means sitting in your car when you should be driving to the doctor and no matter what you fucking listen to what they are saying even if you cant fix it even if you cant do anything about it, because if you care about this person, this person cares about you and sometimes just talking with you is all they needed.. I know it wont fix anything but for those 20 minutes she can think, be told and know life will be okay and I got this. life isn’t easy if it was I would have the world figured out by now and i surely do not.. Its funny no matter where my life goes hearing her voice on the other end of the phone sometimes that’s the only thing that feels normal like its all I really cared about

client calls my cell phone at 8:45 this a.m. asks me if I was sleeping.. of course I say no I’m just getting ready to go into office. « which was a lie because I never go to office before 10 on a Monday, I’m simply watching Mike & Mike. He then says oh I called your office they said you were not in yet so I figured you might have the day off. « my question is if you thought I had the day off today why the hell are you calling my cell at 8:45?? so after this back and forth of him talking and me thinking all this in my mind finally he starts talking work.. He then says so me and the wife were thinking about the house all weekend « clearly a lie because I showed it to him Sunday afternoon and that is hardly the entire weekend, as he gets that information out he then asks me if that was my phone or his phone.. « again I think to myself, well if it was my phone I would be telling you to hold on a minute I have another call.. So finally he realizes its his phone, takes the call comes back on and says hey Garrett, can I give you a call in an hour? I will just call you at the office.. so now I was forced to come to work earlier than I wanted.. Now All I can think “Is it lunch yet?” I’m thinking wait for it……… Chinese  *this is my shocked face*

Anonymous asked: what is your idea of the perfect girl?

Honestly I don’t think there is one answer to this. just when I think I have it all figured out someone comes in and changes everything.. I’d say my perfect girl right now is someone I can relate with, someone that has something to say not just agree with me for fear I might not like what they have to say. I want a girl who is real through the good and bad someone I can talk about my life the present and the past without reading into everything. I would love for this perfect girl to have similar interest but I have learned its not always having the same interest that makes a perfect person for you its being able to accept the differences and make efforts to be there for one anothers interest.. I’d love one to be able to lay around on a saturday watch college football, movies all of that, but also want her to want to go out to eat dress nice put a smile on her face and for those few hours not worry about things in her life thats bothering her and just enjoy time together.. I want a girl that I can take out with the guys and pay attention to them too and not just me.. not too much tho cause I will fight him if i think she is paying too much attention lol.. I guess what I’m saying is like this post its all over the place because there is no such thing as a perfect girl Just when you think you found her she will make you end up going margaux kidder hiding in the bushes crazy.. to sum it up I want a lady in the streets but a freak in the sheets

Anonymous asked: Why are you so cool? - bestlikenever

Cause its winter time in Michigan

Why are you the best liken ever?

Just adding my work schedule into today for February and noticed I have to be at office early on valentines day and it reminded me of some time ago when I was going to work valentines day morning and I was running late. Well on my way I come up to a red light and have a car in front of me I am looking at my phone trying to call work glance up thought the car turned and I too was going to turn right because no cars were coming when Boooom ran into the back of the car in front of me.. now I’m thinking oh great I’m a freakin idiot so the car pulls into parking lot by the corner so i follow as I’m getting out of my car I look up and getting out of the car is a beautiful blonde girl that I have never seen before.. well now at this point i’m late, embarrassed and thinking to myself what else can go wrong.. so we look at our cars not a scratch on either so basically no problems except me feeling like a fuckin idiot so I apologize explain I was running late not paying attention and halfway through I stop and just say I’m really sorry and also i gotta ask what your name is because I have never seen you around and you look like the type where i would want to change that.. ended up talking for a bit making me extremely late for work she gave me her number said to call and we can meet on better terms.. of course I don’t call because who wants that to be the story of how they met their future wife, so everyone could be like yep you’re a shitty driver.. anyways about a year later she comes to my house with friends of hers i knew when I’m having a party and once again I’m apologizing to her but this time for not calling.. moral of the story is even with bad luck you can have good luck, throw it away and it will always come back to either bite you or give you another chance.. I never gave her another chance so i’m guessing she is my valentines day curse

So I was just sitting here not working while at work and it came to my mind that 85% of my relationships I have been in were because of boredom. They start in the winter months because there is really not much better to do because of snow taking many of the things I love to do away from me. so my mind feels its okay to enter into a relationship because really i mean what else is there to do during winter months besides going out to eat, watch movies or go out on occasional weekends. Then couple months later, never more then 3 if i can help it, the girl will wonder while i’m pushing away and becoming more distant. truth is it’s probably not her, it’s definitely not me but the real answer is I’m no longer bored. its probably spring time, I’m breaking out the golf clubs watching baseball and you suddenly rank way less important in my life. now you can read this and think no way! that’s not me I was always in love and in it for the right reasons. well do me a favor and think back to some of them and i will BET you that most start from boredom.. yes not all but most, I had one come in a time where I really didn’t want one I wasn’t bored and she found a way to cut through the red tape and break into my world and she never left but I’m telling you thats rare never happened before or since all the rest well if your  reading this and your not the one who lasted the longest welp sorry to admit me and you was me being bored when you came around